The Boy I Grew Up With by Tijan ~ Sarah A’s Review

I have loved Channing Monroe all my life.

In first grade, he asked for my Trapper Keeper.
I hit him in the head with it.
Third grade, we were best friends. We kissed in seventh grade.
Eighth grade, he turned into a bad boy and the rest was a tumultuous storm.

Growing up, the problem was never love for us.
Bad times. Good times. There were times when I felt our love in every inch of my body, vibrating, making me feel like it could bring me back to life.

The problem was us.

The problem is that we’re from two different worlds now.
Fallen Crest and its millionaires for me. Roussou and their criminals for him. I was thriving in mine and he was running his.

But…

But there were nights I felt we couldn’t be further apart than we were, and there were nights I felt we shared the same heartbeat.

When was it time?
When was it time to either sacrifice, make a change, or walk away from the boy I grew up with?

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I have no experience with the Fallen Crest series – I know, shame on me, I plan on rectifying that oversight as soon as I can – but after reading Crew and seeing how much Heather and Channing loved each other I was ecstatic to get their story. I had no idea how long they’d been walking the precarious line between absolute commitment and devastation, after reading The Boy I Grew Up With and witnessing their story both in the present and through significant moments of their past I knew they had no choice in their fate. They were destined, their love preordained by something beyond their control.

I adored Heather, both in Crew and in The Boy I Grew Up With. There are few women who have the kind of innate strength she demonstrated in both books, and I didn’t even know a quarter of her story when I first fell in love with her. She fought for herself, even when the fighting she was doing was a little insane. She had the gumption to go toe-to-toe with one of the most respected and feared people in her town while retaining the sensitivity and empathy to recognize and care for the pain of the people in her life. Heather was extraordinary, and I was delighted to see her finally get the security and joy she so deserved in her life.

One of my favorite parts of The Boy I Grew Up With was the flashbacks to the beginnings of Heather and Channing’s relationship. Seeing those building blocks to the foundation of their relationship made me understand why they kept putting up with the pain they’d been through and were experiencing in the present. I loved how both Heather and Channing realized what they had together was meaningful and unique, and worth making sacrifices for. They both had to fight, forgive, and change their priorities to ensure their happiness, but the rewards the reaped from those changes were well worth all of it.

The Boy I Grew Up With is a standalone novel from Tijan. This book has ties to both the Fallen Crest series and her new Crew series, but none of those books need to be read to enjoy or understand this novel. The Boy I Grew Up With is written in dual first-person perspective, narrated by Heather and Channing.

I am still brokenhearted that I am so late to the Tijan game. I’ve read several of her books this year, and they are all fabulous. I love how seamlessly she seems to be able to move from an emotionally devastating book like Ryan’s Bed to books like Crew and The Boy I Grew Up With that are rife with intrigue and danger. She is well-versed in her craft, and her skill at bending the English language to her will is superb.

“What are you doing here?”

His arms tightened a little around me, and his hand rubbed over my leg. I was buck naked in his arms. I should’ve dressed, but I didn’t have the energy.

His breath felt good on my neck as he answered. “I was up with the guys. I missed you.”

Meaning: he’d either been fighting or drinking with the group of guys he considered more family than family.

I lifted one of his hands to inspect the knuckles, rubbing a thumb over them. “They don’t look bruised up.”

His body tensed, all six feet of pure muscle.

Channing had a face for the fashion runways, a body of tattoos that could appear in any magazine, and an attitude that made him a leader among the rowdiest and most criminally inclined. He was whip smart, ruthless, cunning, cocky, and had a charming side that had started some of our fights. He could be too charming at times, putting his name on a lot of girls’ to-do lists. It’d been a problem for us since we were kids, and though it’d gotten better over the last few years, I knew women came onto him regularly.

But being transparent here, that wasn’t the cause of our problems lately.

His voice was quiet. “I wasn’t fighting.”

I turned and tried to smell his breath. There was a slight trace of bourbon, but that might’ve been mine. “You don’t seem drunk either.”

He chuckled, his eyes studying every inch of my face. He did this when he was trying to figure out where I was going with my statements and if that’d take us into a fight. We acted like we were married and in our sixties by now.

His thumb went to my mouth and pressed there, softly. “I really was just hanging out with the guys. Cruz came over, said you closed for him. I gambled, thought maybe you’d be up—or not.” That dimple again. “I was hoping just to slide in next to you.”

I sighed, and his thumb caressed my cheek before his hand returned to my leg. I moved back, resting in his arms again.

Tijan is a New York Times Bestselling author that writes suspenseful and unpredictable novels. Her characters are strong, intense, and gut-wrenchingly real with a little bit of sass on the side. Tijan began writing later in life and once she started, she was hooked. She’s written multi-bestsellers including the Carter Reed Series, the Fallen Crest Series, and the Broken and Screwed Series among others. She is currently writing a new YA series along with so many more from north Minnesota where she lives with a man she couldn’t be without and an English Cocker she adores.

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The Boy I Grew Up With by Tijan ~ COVERS REVEAL

I have loved Channing Monroe all my life.

In first grade, he asked for my Trapper Keeper.
I hit him in the head with it.
Third grade, we were best friends. We kissed in seventh grade.
Eighth grade, he turned into a bad boy and the rest was a tumultuous storm.

Growing up, the problem was never love for us.
Bad times. Good times. There were times when I felt our love in every inch of my body, vibrating, making me feel like it could bring me back to life.

The problem was us.

The problem is that we’re from two different worlds now.
Fallen Crest and its millionaires for me. Roussou and their criminals for him. I was thriving in mine and he was running his.

But…

But there were nights I felt we couldn’t be further apart than we were, and there were nights I felt we shared the same heartbeat.

When was it time?
When was it time to either sacrifice, make a change, or walk away from the boy I grew up with?

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This is not something I normally do! I don’t think I’ve ever done this before with having a different ebook cover than the paperback cover, but with Heather’s book, both images spoke to me. He was Channing and she was Heather. I felt both needed their moment because this book is truly from both of them. 

TITLE: The Boy I Grew Up With
AUTHOR: Tijan
GENRE: Standalone Contemporary Romance
RELEASE DATE: October 29, 2018

“What are you doing here?”

His arms tightened a little around me, and his hand rubbed over my leg. I was buck naked in his arms. I should’ve dressed, but I didn’t have the energy.

His breath felt good on my neck as he answered. “I was up with the guys. I missed you.”

Meaning: he’d either been fighting or drinking with the group of guys he considered more family than family.

I lifted one of his hands to inspect the knuckles, rubbing a thumb over them. “They don’t look bruised up.”

His body tensed, all six feet of pure muscle.

Channing had a face for the fashion runways, a body of tattoos that could appear in any magazine, and an attitude that made him a leader among the rowdiest and most criminally inclined. He was whip smart, ruthless, cunning, cocky, and had a charming side that had started some of our fights. He could be too charming at times, putting his name on a lot of girls’ to-do lists. It’d been a problem for us since we were kids, and though it’d gotten better over the last few years, I knew women came onto him regularly.

But being transparent here, that wasn’t the cause of our problems lately.

His voice was quiet. “I wasn’t fighting.”

I turned and tried to smell his breath. There was a slight trace of bourbon, but that might’ve been mine. “You don’t seem drunk either.”

He chuckled, his eyes studying every inch of my face. He did this when he was trying to figure out where I was going with my statements and if that’d take us into a fight. We acted like we were married and in our sixties by now.

His thumb went to my mouth and pressed there, softly. “I really was just hanging out with the guys. Cruz came over, said you closed for him. I gambled, thought maybe you’d be up—or not.” That dimple again. “I was hoping just to slide in next to you.”

I sighed, and his thumb caressed my cheek before his hand returned to my leg. I moved back, resting in his arms again.

Tijan is a New York Times Bestselling author that writes suspenseful and unpredictable novels. Her characters are strong, intense, and gut-wrenchingly real with a little bit of sass on the side. Tijan began writing later in life and once she started, she was hooked. She’s written multi-bestsellers including the Carter Reed Series, the Fallen Crest Series, and the Broken and Screwed Series among others. She is currently writing a new YA series along with so many more from north Minnesota where she lives with a man she couldn’t be without and an English Cocker she adores.

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CREW by Tijan ~ Sarah A’s Review

To survive where I live, you have two options.
You can be a Normal—a cheerleader, jock, member of the debate team, or on the yearbook committee. You pretend everything is normal.

Or you can be crew.
You insult us? We hurt you.
You hurt us? We really hurt you.
And if you f*ck with us, we will end you.

My name is Bren.
I’m the only female in the Wolf Crew—the best, fiercest, and most dangerous crew there is—and we have a rule: There’s no falling in love.

Well… too late.

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It took me a minute to get into this book. Once I did, though, I consumed it voraciously. When I finally finished I was glad that the first part of the book took so long to take off; there was a lot of information to digest and if it had been glossed over at all the end of the book wouldn’t have reached the intense climax it did. Tijan did a fabulous job of constructing this new world and the premise of crews and Normals in Crew, and I can’t wait to see what she has in store for the rest of the series.

Crew is a VERY slow-burn romance, and for a little while, I wasn’t sure which direction Bren was going to head. There were two definite possibilities for her and I was on board with both of them. Tijan did a great job of constructing two compelling suitors in Cross and Race. As the story developed it was apparent Bren could only tear down her walls and be comfortable with one of those boys, and he was only able to be vulnerable with her, too. The book was never a love triangle but giving that little pull of the other man gave Crew an extra layer of interest.

The premise of Crew is completely new to me. Sure, I’ve read tons of gangs/motorcycle club/mafia/etc. books, but the crew and Normals idea was fascinating and original. I found myself engrossed in the system they set up and the way the crews interacted both with other crews and with Normals. I loved how loyal they were to one another and the dynamics within the group, especially that Bren – the only female in her crew – was viewed and treated as completely equal to her male counterparts. In truth, she may have been the most terrifying member of her group because of her affinity for violence.

Bren was a badass; there’s no other way to put it. She was independent, strong – mentally and physically, and fearless. Despite all that, there was still something profoundly broken about her, and when we found out about her past, it made her persona that much more impressive. Bren was intriguing and damaged, and I wanted nothing more, while I was reading than for her to find true love and happiness.

My only wish for this book would have been to get into Bren’s love interest’s head. He seemed just as compelling as Bren, and I would have loved to see what was going on in that beautiful head of his.

Tijan is a New York Times Bestselling author that writes suspenseful and unpredictable novels. Her characters are strong, intense, and gut-wrenchingly real with a little bit of sass on the side. Tijan began writing later in life and once she started, she was hooked. She’s written multi-bestsellers including the Carter Reed Series, the Fallen Crest Series, and the Broken and Screwed Series among others. She is currently writing a new YA series along with so many more from north Minnesota where she lives with a man she couldn’t be without and an English Cocker she adores.

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CREW by Tijan ~ COVER REVEAL

To survive where I live, you have two options.
You can be a Normal—a cheerleader, jock, member of the debate team, or on the yearbook committee. You pretend everything is normal.

Or you can be crew.
You insult us? We hurt you.
You hurt us? We really hurt you.
And if you f*ck with us, we will end you.

My name is Bren.
I’m the only female in the Wolf Crew—the best, fiercest, and most dangerous crew there is—and we have a rule: There’s no falling in love.

Well… too late.

**Full-length novel. First book in a YA Series. This book is dark, violent, and not for the faint of heart.**
This is 100% a new series from TIJAN. All new characters in the Tijanverse and is intended for mature audiences only.

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TITLE: Crew
AUTHOR: Tijan
SERIES: Untitled series
GENRE: Young Adult
RELEASE DATE: August 27

Tijan is a New York Times Bestselling author that writes suspenseful and unpredictable novels. Her characters are strong, intense, and gut-wrenchingly real with a little bit of sass on the side. Tijan began writing later in life and once she started, she was hooked. She’s written multi-bestsellers including the Carter Reed Series, the Fallen Crest Series, and the Broken and Screwed Series among others. She is currently writing a new YA series along with so many more from north Minnesota where she lives with a man she couldn’t be without and an English Cocker she adores.

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NOW AVAILABLE!! Bad Boy Brody by Tijan ~ Sarah A’s Review

One punch took him from Hollywood’s Golden Boy to Bad Boy Brody.

The media didn’t care he was grieving his brother’s death. They descended on him, but to change his reputation, his manager got him a deal.

Act in an indie film, one that already had Oscar buzz, and he’d get the movie roles he needed to secure his future.

He took the deal.

Yet he wasn’t prepared for the real-life people behind the script. He wasn’t prepared for the murder the movie was based on. And he really wasn’t prepared for her, the biggest secret of all.

She was wild. She was beautiful. She defied gravity.

But was she the leading role that would tame him?

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At first blush, I loved Bad Boy Brody.  This book was a joy to read, and I was utterly engrossed with Morgan and Brody’s story while I was in their world.  I wish the book had a cover that fit the story better, even after reading the cover copy, I was sure the story was going to be completely different than what it was.  The title, too, didn’t seem to fit the tone of the story well.  Bad Boy Brody was far better, far more emotional than either the cover or the title indicated.

I adored the setting of this book and how much Morgan’s land and the mustang herd that ran on it were a major player in moving the book forward.  These elements were so vital to Morgan, so crucial to the very core of the story; it was hard not to want to crawl onto that piece of land and watch the mustangs stampede across it.  It felt so real; I could almost taste the fresh, crisp mountain air.

I’m on an insta-love kick right now, and this book definitely fits that bill.  Their intense connection started before they even spoke to one another and that crazy bond continued to deepen with each interaction they had.  As a person who has felt that kind of pull toward another, I understood how they felt.  How they knew what was happening between them was bigger than they were, and it would be life-changing.  I found the way Tijan explored their attachment to one another fascinating, especially while we were also dealing with Morgan’s ties to her ‘sister’ mare and the herd.

Morgan was a captivating character.  From her tragic childhood to her acceptance and integration into the wild mustang herd, she was one of the most unique people I’ve ever read about.  There were parts of her character that were a little beyond belief, but for the most part, I could identify with her compulsion to seclude herself away from the human world and exist in a world where little beyond survival is important.  Her growth arc was compelling, too.  Watching her transform from the ghost she was in the initial chapters to the girl who was ready to take on the world for the people she loved, in the end, was cathartic.

I had a little harder time connecting with Brody.  I didn’t understand his motivations to stay in the world he was in, as it felt like he hated every minute of his work.  He only seemed truly happy when he was with Morgan, his nieces, or when he was free from all the social conventions he’d been trapped by.  I would have loved to have seen more growth from his character, but I was happy to see him begin to deal with the issues plaguing him.

My one wish for this book was tiny and, while important, almost felt like a throw-away line and that was Morgan mentioning a barn party.  It seemed so incongruous to her character that she not only would have gone to such a party but that she would have done what she said she’d done at it, that I had a hard time reconciling it.  I just wish that single line had been swapped out for something more in keeping with who Morgan was as a character.

I’m relatively new to Tijan’s writing, this is only my second book by her, but I love how diverse her writing is.  Ryan’s Bed will probably always hold my top spot for her books, but Bad Boy Brody was also a fantastically compelling story and held me captive from the first page to the last.  She’s excellent at building consuming worlds and real, flawed, sympathetic characters.  I find myself falling in love with her storytelling and know I’ll be a long-time reader of her work.

Tijan is a New York Times Bestselling author that writes suspenseful and unpredictable novels. Her characters are strong, intense, and gut-wrenchingly real with a little bit of sass on the side. Tijan began writing later in life and once she started, she was hooked. She’s written multi-bestsellers including the Carter Reed Series, the Fallen Crest Series, and the Broken and Screwed Series among others. She is currently writing a new YA series along with so many more from north Minnesota where she lives with a man she couldn’t be without and an English Cocker she adores.

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NOW AVAILABLE!! Ryan’s Bed by Tijan ~ Sarah A’s Review

I crawled into Ryan Jensen’s bed that first night by accident.

I barely knew him. I thought it was his sister’s bed—her room. It took seconds to realize my error, and I should’ve left…

I didn’t.
I didn’t jump out.
I didn’t get embarrassed.
I relaxed.
And that night, in that moment, it was the only thing I craved.

I asked to stay. He let me, and I slept.

The truth? I never wanted to leave his bed. If I could’ve stayed forever, I would have.
He became my sanctuary.

Because—four hours earlier—my twin sister killed herself.

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They say every no reader ever reads the same book, we take our own life experiences, beliefs, and scars in and apply them to the story.  That sentiment is especially true for this book.  This book ripped open a part of my soul that I’d thought had healed a long time ago, the part that had been damaged when I lost my baby sister to suicide.  Tijan found that scar and poked and prodded at it in a way that was both painful and cathartic.  It’s an ache I’m sure I’ll be dealing with for some time, again.

Ryan’s Bed is a standalone novel, told in first-person perspective by Mackenzie.

I’m in awe of how real this book felt to me.  Grieving a loved one lost to suicide is a singular experience, and it was so well captured in Ryan’s Bed.  I related deeply to Mackenzie and how she slogged through her life after Willow died.  The rapid-fire emotions interspersed with periods of complete numbness were all too familiar.  It all spoke to me in a way that made me feel normal when she was feeling anything but.

I’d be remiss if I didn’t mention the titular character and his relationship with Mackenzie; it was essential to Mackenzie making it through the grieving process.  Ryan was amazing; the way he knew what Mackenzie needed and was a pillar of strength for her when she had little else to lean on.  His own experiences informed his ability to support Mackenzie in the way she most needed it.  Their dynamic, born from an intense need for understanding, was the kind of connection that binds souls together for eternity.  I loved witnessing them help one another, not only through their grief but also navigating the pitfalls of high school politics.

Tijan is an author I keep planning to read, but not taking the time for.  I have several of her books on my kindle but had not opened one until Ryan’s Bed.  If this is typical of her writing, I have been missing out on some superb writing for far too long.  I was completely wrapped up in this book, both in the story and the writing itself.  I loved her handling of such a delicate subject matter.

Tijan is a New York Times Bestselling author that writes suspenseful and unpredictable novels. Her characters are strong, intense, and gut-wrenchingly real with a little bit of sass on the side. Tijan began writing later in life and once she started, she was hooked. She’s written multi-bestsellers including the Carter Reed Series, the Fallen Crest Series, and the Broken and Screwed Series among others. She is currently writing a new YA series along with so many more from north Minnesota where she lives with a man she couldn’t be without and an English Cocker she adores.

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