Afraid To Fly
The Fearless Series: Book Two
I’d like to tell you that I’m ok.
That the meaningless sex with countless women has somehow numbed the pain. That it’s deciphered the constant confusion in my head. Eased the self-hatred that sinks into my gut every time I look in the mirror.
I’d like to tell you that time heals all wounds.
That we evolve and grow into well-adjusted, stable adults, set on a path to right the world’s wrongs. That we are not our past…we are not our pain.
I want to tell you all those things. Hell, I want to believe all those things. But I’d be lying. I’m good at that. Living a lie is the only way I truly know how to survive.
But the day I saw her, I stopped surviving. I stopped existing. And for the first time in 24 years, I started living.
She brought me back to life. Set me free and sent my soul soaring. Made this useless shell of a man feel like…something. Something whole and real and good.
She saved me.
Although she believes I wasn’t even worth saving.
This story chronicles the journey of Dominic Trevino, a character from Fear of Falling. However, it can be read as a standalone.
Velvet sucked me until I was on the brink of release and for a quick moment, I thought about just getting it over with. But I needed more. I needed that physical connection. I yearned for her touch, her kiss, her smell. It reminded me that I was not like him. I was not what he had hoped I would be. It stated that just because I had been violated, that didn’t make me…it didn’t make different. It didn’t make me gay. I didn’t want that. I wanted this.
Spreading those shapely, toned thighs and filling her up until I pulsed in her womb validated me. Every stroke was a confirmation, and the deeper I went, the more whole I felt. But the moment it was over, the moment I pulled out of her, my latex-sheathed cock wet with her gratification, the doubt began to claw its way back in. Telling me that I was dirty—stained. Used. Useless.
She smiled lazily at me, the dark kohl outlining her eyes smudged along the apple of her cheek. I brushed it tenderly with the pad of my thumb and told her she was beautiful.
“Oh, Dom. You’re such a sweet gent. Too bloody sweet for this shit,” she giggled, looking soft and girlish. I liked her better that way, untarnished by the hardness of life.
“You think so?”
“I know so. Good guys like you shouldn’t be fucking strippers in the middle of the day. I mean, I’m not complaining—I can still feel you inside me, for crying out loud—but, I don’t know. You deserve better.”
I winced at her words, and how much I longed for them to be true. She was just feeding me more lies, and I was ingesting them like candy.
Except this one. This one I knew would never be true. Even if it was the one I wished for the most.
“Nah, I don’t. They don’t call me Dirty for nothing.”
Whitney’s Five Star Review
Afraid to Fly is the gut-wrenchingly beautiful follow up to Fear of Falling featuring my favorite character from this series, Dominic.
It’s been so long since I read Fear of Falling, I had forgotten just how much I loved this amazing group of characters, especially Dirty Dom. I knew this book would be painful to read as we uncovered his past and I was right.
Dom projects a bit of a bad boy image to the women he hooks up with but he is anything but bad. He’s actually one of my favorite male characters, definite book boyfriend material. Outwardly, he has charisma and clean cut sex appeal but inside he is completely broken and has horrible self esteem. Feeling unworthy and incapable of love, he spends his time seeking what little affection he can get from one night stands.
Afraid he will become like the monster who helped raise him, he shys away from any relationships other than his two best friends who he is fiercely protective of. When he meets Raven, he is attracted to her and soon finds himself further drawn to the happiness he feels when he’s with her and her little brother.
After their secrets come to light, it takes all of Dom’s friends to convince him of the beautiful man he really is and talk him into giving love a chance.
Beautiful is the only way to describe this story which is why I’ve used it so many times in this review. The writing flows and each chapter makes you fall more in love with Dom and ache for the little boy trapped inside his heart who just wants to be loved. Raven is a great girl and her little brother’s character provided a nice sub-story. Blaine, Kami and Angel are all featured prominently. Blaine’s cousin, C.J. provides some comic relief in an otherwise angst filled story. There is some sex but it’s not an overtly sexual book despite Dom’s recreational activities. This story is all about the emotion.
If you like angst and character driven stories, this is for you. Though this is technically a stand alone, you’ll get much more from the story if you read Fear of Falling first. Five beautiful stars!
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S.L. Jennings is a New York Times & USA Today bestselling author of contemporary and paranormal romance, reality TV junkie, obsessive coffee drinker and collector of crazy.
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